ever feel that you're constantly being attacked. and that you end up in a corner, without no way out?

things are so confusing atm. things are just fine, but still it feels like something is missing.

arent i happy? arent i happy enough?

it doesnt make sense. it doesnt make any sense.

i want to be unhappy. is that a sin?
yet when im unhappy i want to be happier.

everything is so rocky right now.
i cant be happy anymore,
enough said.

i can fake it, that should be enough. right?

if i could i would and i should just rip my heart out,
i dont deserve it.

rick.